jealousy

Almost everybody experienced jealousies, most of them are girls. (As girls` mind is more complicated compared to boys`)Mostly, jealousies are not beneficial. Many people suffered from jealousy. Sometimes, I wonder why there is jealousy in this world. It shouldn`t exists.

Just ignore the jealousies occurred between adults for once. If you`ve actually observed the growth of some children, you`ll realize that there is jealousy between children, too. Many children jealous when some adults divided their time or attention on another child, or I shall say that when some children are used to be the one who their parents or even other adults care of ,especially when a child is well-pampered. I don`t know that is that a natural phenomena or what but it seemed to be so natural.

Well, there are various types of jealousies. I`m pretty sure that most of the people experienced at least one of them. It can be in the aspect of relationship, academics, works, etc. When one is jealous, try not to continue to have the thought to be jealous, change the jealousies to a target. A positive thought. Set a target and work hard to reach your target. Eventually, jealousies disappeared.

Don`t be jealous when someone is doing his/her work better than you did. You will not be the winner in every aspect, as long as you did the best you could, you have nothing to be regretted of. Be happy with what you are but do not upset with yourself when you see that someone is better than you. Jealousies do not change things better. Sometimes, satisfy with who you are, but it doesn`t mean that you are good. Changes are needed when there should be, do not lose your original self just because of jealousies, unless it is beneficial. I hope that this is helpful, for all of you and also, for me. =)

Painful and Itchy...

During these days, I found myself non-stop scrabbling my neck, my hands, my legs, my stomach, etc. I wonder what had happened to me. I suffered for this every day, especially at night. That`s why I had a tough time to sleep.

Every time after scrabbling the itchy parts, the skin surface started to appear some symptoms. It looked like the symptoms being sting by the mosquitoes but there was a difference. It seems longer than the one being sting by the mosquitoes and it appeared in a multiply form, unlike the one being sting by a mosquito, one sting only affects one side.

I don`t know how it appeared. My friends asked me to go to a clinic to have some advises or something about this “disease” from a doctor. I did not go to see a doctor and I suffered. Just imagine someone like me, who really like to sleep, had a tough time to sleep because of this. I told my mum about this but she gave me a kind of cream to apply on instead…

Unexpected incident often happens

Unexpected incident always happens. Sometimes, I did not expect myself to get a good result as I revised at the last minute. I did not think before that I will get something I wanted easily without working hard for it. Sometimes, I get something I wanted before I wanted to have it. For example, I wanted to buy a book. Before I decided to buy that book, there is one in my house. I did not know how it appeared. Maybe someone dropped it and my parents picked it up because they thought it was mine. Who knows?

In this aspect, it is good to happen, BUT there is also something you don`t like happened. For example, I thought I will get a good result as I have put on many efforts on it. It happened against my will. Sometimes, you looked healthy and on the next day, you fall a sick. You thought you`re lucky for having everything done in the right time but you got scolded because you did some mistake. You looked well today but you are not on the next day.

I`m out of words to have a further description on it but that`s what happened sometimes. What will happen is out of our control and what we have to do is to do our part and ensure that what we have done is the best we could to have the best results...

Regretted...

This morning, my mum said that she is going to give the old car (PAM 5538)to the government to get some refund for buying a new car. My heart sank. I didn`t want her to change the old car with a brand new Proton. I rather choose not to have the new car.

PAM5538, the car we used to sit on when we are still in the kindergarten. The first car my dad bought after their marriage. The only car my grandfather had during his lifetime. The first car my dad used to drive my mum to hospital to give birth to my eldest sister. The first car existed in my family. The most memorable car in my family…

I did not think before that my parents will ask to sell the car… Quite frankly, I can`t imagine how will I be if the car doesn`t exist in my house compound anymore…I don`t want this to happen! However, it is not my right to decide whether to sell the car or not. I am not the owner…I failed to persuade my parents…I`m really sad because of that…

I`m really scare that I won`t be able to face the reality, whether my parents will sell it or not… I regretted…for being forgetful of its existence…I should spend more time…maybe to look at it for at least more than 10 minutes…I didn`t even snap a photo on it… I really regret…

No matter what will happen, whether it will be sold or not…it will always be there…at least in my heart…

My beloved mum

Today, I’m going to type about my mother.

She is a teacher, currently teaching at SJK (c) Gunung Rapat. This picture is snapped during my eldest sister`s wedding dinner.(My uncle , Nicky Lum as the photographer )Link : Vivian Lum Qian Ru.

Back on the topic, my mother is the one who committed a lot to her family. Even if she is having a lot of pressure or she is facing some difficulties, she won`t speak out any of them in front of us. She knew that if both of the parents complained a lot about how tough they have to work for the family, it`ll give a great influence to the child. She is the one who always tolerate when there are any conflicts.

I realised that if my mother quarrels with my dad, she`ll always be the one who tolerate. She consults my sister when she is having difficulties on her studies, life, etc. She always wills to help us when we are in troubles. She did whatever she could to make our life better.

Every of her children will know that she is interested in reading some Chinese Novels. She told us that she began to read novels since she was in Standard three. She met my dad when they`re having the same course. The game she like the most is ``Spider Solitaire`` which many people can find on the computer.

She is the eldest child in her family. She has a younger sister and three younger brothers. She learnt a lot of cooking skills from her mother (my grandmother).She is good in cooking but she rarely cook since my sisters are gone to KL...

My mother had collected many stamps in older days. I realised this when I was in standard 4.She gave birth to me when she was 40 years old, which may give risk to her .No matter what happened, she`ll think for us before she think for herself.

No matter what happens, she will always be my mother. The woman I loved the most. I mean what I said. Thanks for everything single love you gave to us. ^^

Friends

"How much does a friend meant to you?"

Many people may see this question from many types of quiz or test.


"A friend in need is a friend`s indeed”. I’m sure that you saw this quote from many sources. What is the concept of friends? What is a friend`s opportunity?


Well, throughout these years, I realised that friends play an important role in my life. I don`t know how much I meant to them, but I won`t expect that I`m their best friend. I mean, the friend who they`ll think of when they`re in trouble.


I read a book about friendship. There is a limitation between friends. There are many friends who will only like to share your happiness. There are also friends who will really care about you, they will help you when you are in trouble and take good care of you when you are sick. I didn`t expect my friends to be so good to me, I didn`t know who are those friends who are really `friends` to me.


Until I was hospitalized last year.(take a review to my older posts)You know what? I remembered that when I was having a high fever, I forced myself to go to school. I didn`t know that I was having a Dengue Fever. I was not able to concentrate during the lessons. We had PJ lesson on that day. They didn`t attend the lesson but they chose to look after me. Although I didn`t speak out, but I was really touched.
I realized that when I was facing difficulties, they`ll stand out and help me. They didn`t say a word to complain about it. I’m glad that I have good friends like them. I remembered that when I was in primary school, I saw that my second elder sister was so close with her friends. I didn`t realize that I`m also having true friends like them. I really appreciate all of you as my friends.
I didn`t know that I meant so much to my friends. Sometimes, they will leave me alone but they didn`t mean to do that purposely. They may not remember to remind me to do many things, they may forget to ask me certain things but they`ll always there to lend me a hand when I need them. I mean what I typed. The purpose I typed this post is to pay my respects to all my beloved friends. Thanks for everything you did for me. =]

I`m feeling inferior..again

Sometimes, I`ll think that I`m really funny. I speaks what I think, mostly only with my friends who are considered as my good friends. I didn`t really think of my shortcoming. I don`t know that I `m this poor in English or even other languages. I thought that I can be considered as `okay` .Quite Frankly, it`s not comfortable to know one-self`s weakness..

My friend (If we`re considered as friends) gave me the address of his blog. At the moment I send a comment to him, I didn`t dare to put my blog`s name. I felt like a coward. I `m scare that if he read my blog, he`ll see how poor I am in English. (He is really good in English, even in other languages.) I was feeling inferior.

I read my friend`s blog (another friend).If you`re interested to know her, click on the links: smile. She used English as a media for her blog. While I watch some movies or visit to other`s blog, I`ll feel inferior. I don`t really know how poor I am in English.. Maybe I can be considered as `terrible`. Sometimes, I can`t stop myself from looking down upon myself. I can`t. 

I`ll feel inferior easily. Every time, I`ll say some drive words to myself. Honestly, mostly just to make myself feeling better. Perhaps I`m really not that good, I shall put on more efforts...

Dad - the man who worked hard to sustain our life..

I realised that I didn`t type much about my family for this blog (I`m sorry).Hence, I take this as a chance to introduce my family via my blog. First, I`ll introduce my dad.


He worked as a teacher and he is a teacher. You might be surprised that why did I describe him in this way. Thus, this is the explanation: My dad was retired about 3 years ago but yet he worked as a teacher at his tuition centre.

My dad came from a poor family. They faced many difficulties during their lifetime. My dad had once described his family member to me. They lived in a wooden house in a small village when my dad was small. He had an elder brother and a younger sister.

His father, who was my grandfather, came from China. He was a thin man but he had a big strength to hit my dad`s brother in earlier times. He was bad-tempered but responsible. He took care of my dad and his siblings very well. He canned my dad`s elder brother not because that he was too mad because of the pressure of the life but the behave of my dad`s brother. He was so disappointed to know that he was unable to teach his son the moral and the principal of life. He was upset. He passed away during Chinese New Year before my dad`s marriage. My grandmother cried a lot because of this.

My dad`s mother, who was my grandmother came from China, too. She was a very thin woman but she was a very tough woman. She worked hard to sustain their life. She paid her loyalty to her husband and she was totally a responsible, obedient and well-behaved woman. She paid her love and kindness to my dad during her life time. My dad said that during the first time he brought my mum to his house, her mum (my grandmother) insisted that she want to cook herself for my mum as celebration. My dad said that her mum was having some problem for her eyesight but yet she insisted to cook. She cut her fingers unconsciously when she was chopping a chicken. She hid it from my dad and finally when my dad knew about it, my dad was so touched and sad to see his mother`s love and scarification. I forgot whether did he cry but my dad remembered it for his whole life.

My dad`s elder brother loves to gamble and he is a drunkard. He used all the money given by my grandparents to gamble. He is a disobedient child and he refused to come back to see my grandmother for the last time before she passed away. He was not a good character but yet he was a good swimmer. He disobey my grandparents` advises and he swam in the pool (which was dangerous for children). He often scolds my grandparents and my grandmother was bullied by him. Although he came from a poor family, he loves to gamble. He spent at least RM 10 (which was a big figure in earlier times) almost a week. He had two daughters and one was died because she was raped and killed by one of the people who gamble with my uncle. He passed away when he was only about 45 years old. I can feel that my dad is disappointed with him when he told me that his elder brother asked for the location my grandmother hid her saving money when she was about to pass away.

My dad`s younger sister (My aunt) was a tough and obedient child. She obeyed every advices and demands from my grandparents. My dad treated her very well and they were close to each other during earlier times. She is working at Singapore and she lives in Johor Bahru alone. She divorced with her husband when her ex-husband turned over to find another woman as his wife. She was highly disappointed with him. She has two children and she treated them as her whole life treasure. Unfortunately, her son refused to accept her as his mother and he went and lived with his dad .I heard that his stepmother treat him terribly. Besides her son, her daughter also turned against her and she had once cheated my aunt for her own sake. She was also a disobedient child.

My dad came from a poor family but he succeeds to change his life better. He is an obedient child and he obeys every demands and instructions given by my grandparents. He loves gardening as he is from a poor family which needed to make their own food to sustain their life. He loves family and he pays his loyalty to his friends and family. He is not only a good son but he is also a responsible husband, a good father and a good teacher.

My dad grew vary of vegetables and fruits at my house compound. He loves to joke to us and almost every day he`ll say ``I love you `` to my mother and I .He loves to teach and he is good in BM. He loves to eat bitter gourd, pumpkin (any vegetables and fruits will do). He loves his family very much and he sacrificed most of his time to his family and to work. I`m glad that he is my dad! ^^