~.~

fav ice blended red bean with whipped cream

best custard in Ipoh :3

best coffee in Ipoh :3

真是的， stress 到瘦下的4 kg 已经慢慢回来了... 得每天继续运动下去. -_-" 吃完了，  得继续努力下去啊

脑袋瓜不要再想东西了  乖啦  安静 ._.  

上个礼拜牧师对我说的话   "don't fear, don't care about what others said, don't care about their criticism, God says,' you're important to Me. You may not think so but you are important to Me. Do not fear'." 

哈哈  怎么发个恶梦又开始焦虑了呢， 林欣慧  你的坚持去了哪里. 干嘛又担心那么多， 你应该更相信祂的啊. 坚持下去  你可以的， 像你常发的噩梦那样  梦醒就过去了. 明天要更积极地生活哦 :) 说过要改变啊。 

这样下去不是办法. 28号 coffee bean 再不打来叫我 interview 就去 starbucks 问吧. 没有下不完的大雨 刮不完的风   需要的  是更坚定的决心 和走下去的勇气.  加油！！！^^

沉淀期

早上的咖啡、中午的绿茶、傍晚的锡兰茶；
奢时的游戏，过多的休息，填满心声的日记.
让我像看到糖果的小孩   向往这几天的生活.

欠缺的不是理智，而是起身实践的热忱.
责怪时间过得太慢，但因怠惰任性地停留在原地的  不就是这幼稚的自己吗
很多道理  不是不懂  而是吸收的程度不如开始知道的一瞬间快
很多东西  想速战速决   但却急也急不来
只得放慢脚步  一点点地尽力完成.

之前一直埋怨被迫停学这么多个月   很懊恼， 因为有股冲动想立即升学
好怕沉淀久了，就后悔了.
我低估了自己幼稚的程度
发现自己越多丑陋的一面   让我好惭愧
这么任性的自己  只有可爱的两个老人家  日对夜对  也不嫌烦
给我那么多 收到的却那么少
担心想太多的女儿  但笑笑当没事

这个沉淀期会存在  一定有它的理由
只是发现那么多祂要我做的事情   真的吓到我了
对啊  我应该更知足
因为有爱我的家人、关心我的朋友、亲手实践梦想和解决困难的机会
在他们面前  可以松懈下盔甲，怠惰一下   好自在啊！~  呵呵呵
因为我根本就不完美  理智上懂的不一定是心理上赶得及的进度
知道应该做什么 但还是会忍不住道出心声
不用害怕  因为他们大方地包容了我的不完美
尽管我不完美  他们还是一样好好地对待我  安慰我  鼓励我

第一个逆境   我不可以就这样放弃
好好地拼过去  以后就会更懂得珍惜一切
祂也不希望我就这样放弃了  不是吗?
林欣慧，加油啊！^^

总会有些事物  像百听不厌的曲子  在你再度发掘它们的时候   

用感动温暖你的心,  满满、满满的。

post- chinese-new-year celebration

so here I am again, in Ipoh. This Chinese New Year wasn't as bad as what I've expected, there're some parts that I enjoyed :) Ahem, so speaking about cny. Nope, I didn't eat much main course meal. Yes, I ate many bowls of my favourite tong shui :D :D :D hmmm. How many bowls? 8? or 9? don't know. :3 drank coffee and many cups of tea as well :D :D :D  put on little weight that I put off these few months, but fortunate enough the amount that I've gained didn't fully compensate those that I've lost. God is good ;)

This Chinese New Year has been the toughest one for me, because this is the year that I truly care about my future undertakings, so there have been many conflicts in there, mostly in my mind (told you I think a lot). I'm sorry for being passive during some family activities this year, I obviously need to learn more to improve on my socializing skills... and emotion quotient. It's my bad, I'm sorry. I will improve on it. :) 

So speaking of the good part, I enjoyed the outdoor activities this year. ^^ One of my favourite parts of cny would be riding bicycle, that's one of the things that can pull me out of my bed during cny, as I can only ride it every cny. What I like about cycling : the speed and the wind that blows along as you accelerate down the steep road.That's the heavenly feeling which overshadows the stakes of its perilous part. Totally worth it, though it marked my limbs with bruises and scratches. I'm positive that I'll master it better if I get to ride over a longer period of time, now my level of performance is : close to fall off every ride. Ya I need to control the speed better and also stop the bicycle nicely when there're vehicles which appear out of the blue. hmm. Anyway I'm safe and happy, contented with the cycling experience. ^.^V  lalala

I like to look up at the sky,
'cause that's when my mind stops spinning.
Everything halts at this special moment,
to admire the beauty of nature.  

Bowling. haha finally not gutter ball every time, lol. I got my first strike in my life, praise the Lord. :D 

thank you for teaching me something brand new about life.  :)

Ice skating? nope I didn't make it. I still can't skate without holding on to the bars attached to the walls. Never mind,  good experience though. I'm still proud to say that it's good enough for newbies like me, it's only my 1st attempt! so what if I still can't master it ? -.-

relatives who brought me laughter during cny :D

the thing that I love the most during ice skating. ^^

Overall, lesson learnt is : Don't be confined by what your mind thinks. True enough, our mind works in very subjective ways and things go in negative ways when you think everything pessimistically. When you think negatively, you shut off the possibility of having a good outcome. Don't judge people, but treat everyone with pure kindness and love. It's only when your gentleness and love are shown, you'll get the chance of being cared or loved back. Things work both ways but nothing will happen when you don't choose to love others. Love the world and the people as what God has commanded. 

Don't be scared to give a try about anything. You'll never know what you may get in the end, maybe the experience will bring a lifetime change. :) You can't reap what you didn't sow, so why not give it a try? :D hmm. another one, perseverance. I have to strengthen my will on something that I've already decided on. Don't give in to temptation of giving up so easily, I can do this. Ya, at least let myself know that I'm not that bad... and I can do this.Don't degrade myself anymore, but save myself some confidence to be good. Don't be scared of failing, there's nothing shameful about failing, not unless you didn't even try. Gather myself up, belt up and brave the challenges ahead.

Remember, what others think about you is not important at all, nor what your passive mind told of you, for every temptation and every challenge that you face is an opportunity to do good. Stop crying, move on. You surely can glorify God's name in much better ways :) This life is not just about me, so stop worrying too much :D

2 Timothy 1:7 

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. :)

reposting - some lessons can only be learnt by constant reviews and meditations on them. :) 

:)

Playing ukulele is so much fun! :D I gonna keep on learning to play no matter how hard it is to master the chords (lol, for me) *determined*  never mind the pain on fingertips, totally worth it.

I just have to keep trying to do different stuffs that make me happy and contented, so that I'll find the right way to meditate and shift back my mood on track whenever I'm off it. :) yup, sometimes a break is required for me to walk much further.God, there's so much things yet to learn about life. :)  

I'm imperfect but You are a perfect God.

breakfast with dad
31.1.2013