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Epic fail for multitasking too much.

so what, I gotta try 

to fix it, and to do it better this time round. 

hopefully before time's up. :)

GAMBATEH!

Last week of multitasking

This is one of the toughest multitasking plans I'm in. Never thought that it'll be this hard.
Balance,prioritize,concentrate and hearts to do the best. right, I can do this.
gambateh :)

rainbow symbolizes promise.
This one, to self.

Rush

'Rushing, rushing, rushing.We are always rushing.Never have enough time here, always trying to make our way there.Need to have left here five minutes ago, need to be there now. '

( adapted from Thanks for the Memories by Cecelia Ahern)

Rush rush rush. hush hush hush. I always do that, always have a to-do list, always have to meet some targets, always have too less time to accomplish everything, always want to be occupied with something to do.

Then in the midst of business, I begin to crave for that much more time to paint, to draw, to learn how to play ukulele - just a second that I realized that there're always things that I hope I'd be doing. Then I caught myself up and warned myself, never complain about life, enjoy the process instead. :) Then as I go on with a grateful heart, I'm all cheerful and happy again.

yes, in fact, no time is wasted unless you have been ungrateful and distracted about something. Because of never-ending wishes and wants, one falls easily into the traps of being murmurers, bitter and grouchy inside out. Right, speaking of myself, and am reminding myself - I hope I'd remain grateful about what I undergo or have, because every experience is a gift. :)

Perfer et obdura, dolar hic tibi prodent olim

( adapted from Thanks for the Memories by Cecelia Ahern)

take the time you need, don't have to rush and be too stringent on yourself. Do things with hearts and so you may reap the true fruit of happiness - the one-of-a-kind satisfaction and enjoyment. Why so serious? sit back, relax your muscles a little bit and so you may get going in further miles. ☺

:)

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没有关系. 因为解释这种东西

对于了解你的人不需要；

对于不了解你的人，更不需要.

reminds me of  Elizabeth in
'If you could see me now' by Cecelia Ahern. :)

a blessed three-day camp :)

26.6.2013- 28.6.2013

This whole thing began with Aunty Esther asking if I'd help out for this camp and after I said yes. :)
First of all, I want to say sorry for all the doubts I've had, thank you so much for making me feel welcomed and at home. 

Arrival at campsite

ahem, to cut it short.

I feel so happy back in this camp. I found a kind of happiness that I've longed for, and then I realized that the last time I got it was from a previous  youth church camp. It was something irreplaceable, something so precious that you can't find from anywhere else.

There they are, genuine people with hearts to serve, people who really care and love unconditionally. 

Elders who are always there, attentive to the happenings and minor details that people barely notice; Youth leaders who put all their hearts into everything that they do, genuine in caring about others; Youths and children with the purest hearts,without slightest doubts about the dreams they believe in. There I was, among them, a childish eighteen-year-old, about to turn nineteen in few more months, dumbfounded with the things learnt from all these people. 

There's no other place like church. A sacred place which wears off all your tiredness from work or studies, substitute it with loves, faith and hopes. You feel so safe back there, happy like a child as overwhelming thoughts are waved off. You never wanna leave, because the place was near perfect. Helps are always offered when asked, and people still care in the midst of business. 

I am really amazed by what youths can do. They can really be devoted to the things they're assigned to, and carry it out at they very best. Sometimes it makes me feel inferior, haha. Children are not that scary... and they can be sweet...☺ Responsibility of caring the younger ones? It's not as tough as what I've thought, because when I did something for them, there wasn't reluctance. I realized that I really care in some ways, though I do have a poker face and poker-face heart.  However, honestly, I have to admit, I didn't open up much enough. Hmm... I can speak really mechanically at times.Fondness of children... still has to be cultivated. :/ I grow close to people rather slowly and I can't be soft and gentle to them until they have certain affection on me.

I'm really blessed to have a chance to know more biblical knowledge from this camp, a chance to bring people closer to the messages implied... though I stuttered a lot. The ability to simplify things and explain well sometimes during the camp? I have to say, it must be from God, 'cause pure luck wouldn't have brought me that. I doubt a lot too, on this narrow and winding road to seek the truth. I will continue to be a seeker, and will hold onto what I truly believe in. Because He never forsake me. 

After the long day, it was really nice spending time to fellowship with you all. Sorry about the lame jokes and craps that I went on and on like... I know I'm really childish. -_-" really sorry about that. Thanks for all the good memories :D

youth leaders eating cup noodles as supper ☺

I really love the idea of staying together in a dorm. Somemore, double-deck beds!!! ♥♥♥ I love'em since childhood. Thank you so much for making me feel welcomed. Sometimes, you're right. I don't feel like a nineteen-year-old either. I feel so much younger... I look childish that's one, I don't have that right level of maturity that's two... and... I really like sticking around you guys ☻

I'm really honoured to have the chance to be a senior advisor there :) It changed my perspectives of life in some ways. Being a game mistress for the hardest game during camp also let me see a lot of things. It really amazed me when people from different groups chose to help other group when they're actually competing for the highest water level of the game. Campers of other groups actually cheered and helped out when the playing group members are struggling to strive for their best. Then the elders went into the pool and helped out also. Such a sweet scene. ☻☺It's really heartfelt seeing them persevering and keep trying and trying. You feel sorry for them but nonetheless, glad and pleased at their hardwork. JOB WELL DONE ALL!!! :D 

and lastly, I want to apologize for any hard feelings that I might have caused. Sometimes I speak so mechanically and brainlessly... sorry ><  It was really nice meeting you all, all the best in everything ya'all are after :D