Be happy always, no matter what happened=]

Such a long time I didn`t update my blog.I went to KL during last weekend with my family to do some celebration for my second sister`s birthday.It was totally awesome!Every of us enjoyed it.=)Yea, so today I`m not going to type a post with a lot of facts but I`ll type on how I feel today.

Yesterday, I went to ECF church with my second eldest sis before the birthday party ( or I should say as a barbeque's session at night) I learnt something during the lesson. No matter who you`re angry with, no matter who is wrong when a quarrel occurred, there should be forgiveness. Frankly speaking, it`s right. Why shall we keep the hatreds? It`s not beneficial after all.We shall forgive someone, not only as a relief for us but it`s what we shall do.Isn`t it? Why shall we remind ourselves how much we hate a person?

Satisfaction is important.That`s a fact which we can`t deny.Satisfy with what you have is so important.Hmmm...well, I`ve talked about this in my earlier post.Find out what I`ve said via my past post if u`re interested=)

ABOUT THE BIRTHDAY PARTY

We dressed ourselves white from the top to the bottom when we went to church.Almost everybody were there when we reached my aunt`s house.The barbecue session was just so AWESOME. We had a great time eating honey chicken,sausages, mashmallow, etc.This is still not the best part.( keep on reading, you`ll know why =p)

After the barbecue session, we went indoor. We`ve snapped some photos with the lighted birthday cake with my beloved sister.After the birthday song was sang and my sister have her birthday wishes, the cake was divided into many parts. Plates of cakes were distributed by my second eldest sister to the seniors in the house with respects while the cake is divided into many slices by my eldest sister.We had a great time enjoying the delicious cake with raspberry juices on top.It`s so delicious that my dad have actually eaten plates of them ( my dad seldom eat something which is sweet.)

Here came the best part.My second eldest sister, who was the birthday girl announced that she have something to say. Everyone kept in silence to hear to her speech.It was one of the best speech I`ve ever heard, indeed. She thanked for the contribution of everyone for her birthday party and she thanked many people who contributed a lot and have helped her a lot since she went to KL until she reached 21 years old.In my surprise, she thanked me in front of my relatives! That`s so affective.She said that she appreciates me as her sister and although I`m younger than her, I`m always the one who gave her supports when she`s so pressurized with her works.I`m the one who woke her up that she has the ability to get her work done well.I didn`t know that I`ve given her so many impressions.That`s touching.She confessed them in front of so many relatives...wow...I should be proud...

I`m really happy and satisfied with what I am and the family I`m living in. Life is so great.There may be frustration and depression in the future but who cares? Life is so good, I`ll never ask for more than a good life like this.I`m satisfied.^^

yell it out!

Many things have happened during these days.Sometimes, God will arrange a lot of challenges for us on the same time.It is really frustrating for many people...I didn`t see any example of a person who faced a lot of challenges and frustration at the same time and is highly depressed before and I saw this week...

Sometimes, we will be blamed by someone because of the wrong things done by someone else.If it`s a small case, it is fine.How about if it is a big case? You get punished physically and mentally and you`ll be highly depressed.If it is because what you have done, it is logically acceptable but if you got that punishment not because you have done wrongly but you were blamed by someone else, what would you have done? Doubtlessly you`ll be frustrated and depressed.Hatreds appeared in the deep heart core.

If I am the one who is facing it, I am not sure whether I will be able to stand for it or not.One thing I `m sure, I`ll think that I don`t deserve it.I did not know how to comfort my friend when she was telling me about this.What shall I say?I did not know! She is pessimistic and I did not know how to give her some advises. She was depressed.Really depressed and frustrated.I`m sad to see that and I don`t know what I shall say...she is so pity...I did not have the experience to receive a punishment because someone did wrongly ...I was out of words to calm her down...

Think thoroughly, many people and character in some novels faced this problem before.For example, the character Zahid who was blamed and punished because his teacher thought that he was the one who have stolen the unique pencil from Dolah and bit the innocent Dolah in the school.He received three strikes of rattan for that.( form 1 English literature, The Pencil).

Jesus, the Son of God for Christian died because he was blamed by others that he lied that he is the Son of God. He knew that he`ll be died but he didn`t escape from that.He didn`t lie but he chose to receive his death because he don`t have to escape from his death to make others think that he ran away because he lied.

Compared to these example, what we have faced are just minor problems.When one problem + another problem,it will cause frustration.Any more small problems that we face will make a person mad and eventually have the thought to commit suicide.

Please remember, it`s true that you won`t hurt when you`re died because there`s nothing after you died! You`ll waste your whole life you have been through.Commit suicide is not a solution to solve the problems but it is just an escape.Why do you have to do such stupid decision to commit suicide because of that? Does it worth to do so?No!you`ll waste your life! Please, think deeply before you action, try before you quit.

Commit suicide is not the best solution and not the best escape!You can yell it out , speak it out or tell a person about the problems you`re facing.If they won`t help much, consult a counsellor.At least you won`t commit suicide and shut all the programs down.

There will be someone to be sad because of your death.Don`t be so selfish and think for yourself only. How sad they`ll be if you dead?Think about it , please!

Quarrelled with my dad

I have been consulted my friends when they`re facing some problems for quite some time.Today, I realized that I`m actually the one who is facing the biggest problem.Who are going to help me out? Only I can settle this up.I had to depend on myself.

Today, I`ve quarrelled with my dad.He said that I`m having a bad attitude and he said that I`m having a good relationship with my grandmother and my mom, but why not him?He said that sometimes my replies seemed to be too short and he felt that I replied him impatiently.He reminded me that he is getting older and older, he may not be able to look after me anymore some day ( touch wood).

During the "speech" given by him, I kept myself quiet.He said that I`ve never change...the more he said, he got angrier.He said that even he was saying all that to me, I won`t listen to him or regret about it.He was wrong...I did regret...

Sometimes, I didn`t act exactly with what I was thinking in my mind.Quite frankly, I didn`t know why did I do this and that.Actually when he was saying all that to me, I was thinking why am I such a terrible person.What did he say were the truth.He said that een if I`m not feeling well or having a bad mood, I shouldn`t treat him like tis.Yea, he`s right...

I thought that I was improving...but mostly, I `m getting even worser...I don`t know why I was giving so many excuses to myself.I even had the thought to commit suicide...but well, I won`t.

All these need a change.I don`t know why but sometimes when my father kept on saying something non-stop to me, it annoyed me. I`ll just keep myself quiet and listen to what he said.He got everyting repeated. After he complained about his work and he is sick or what and finally he is done with his "speech" , I thought that I got a relief.After I`ve thought throughly, I realized that sharing something with my family is actually a good thing...I shouldn`t be mad about that...

But mostly after that, I talked to him impatiently.I lost my patient and I hate this.Mostly when there`s only both of us at home, he`ll keep on saying this and that to me and my replies became more impatient. Sometimes I`ll think why he had so many things to share with me...I thought that this is annoying...but actually this is only an excuse.

Quite frankly, I`ve talked to him impatiently in the morning recently.What had happened to me? I didn`t really know but I`ll really regret for that.I knew I shouldn`t . I really have to change my attitude.I`m really sorry about that.I didn`t talk anything when he was scolding me, I knew that it`ll make things worse.

He said that my sisters are much better than me.He said that I`m the worst among three daughters.Honestly, I didn`t think positively at the moment... He`s right... I didn`t know whether my apology will work or not...since he had said that...I decided to apologize after school, when he cooled down.

After school, he drove me for lunch as usual.During the lunch time, I said sorry to him.To my surprise, he didn`t look angry.He just explained to me why did he say so...After all, he pat my head and I had a good appetite to eat my lunch.He forgave me.

After this incident, I knew that I have so many things to be fixed and there`s still lots of space for improvement.I didn`t mean to be rude...Dad, I`m really sorry. I promise that I`ll be alert before I speak and I`ll try my best to be a good daughter, and also a good person.

"I`m sorry,dad"

Kick off the negative thoughts

I realized that I`ve wasted many times having the negative thoughts when I was a first former. I was having a self-deception. Luckily, I`ve nearly get rid of it. Sometimes, over-confident can be bad but everyone needs confidence.

Don`t give yourself an excuse that you`re worse enough to fail your work when you didn`t even try to do it. Don`t look down upon yourself, that helps nothing. You have to know that blaming yourself non-stop is just wasting your time. When you say that you won`t succeed to do your work, it`s totally an excuse you gave to yourself. It is not only an excuse but it seem that you`re persuading yourself to fail your work!

Come on! Try out before you proved that you can`t. You must have an aspiration and a target before you do something. Think about the possibilities you can succeed. A low possibilities doesn`t mean that there`s no possibilities.

When you`re in troubles, don`t say that you`re going to fail to fix it up before you try to fix it. Why don`t you just cheer up and say some drive words to yourself? That is why you`re sure to fail before you get rid from a trouble. Lastly, try to do your best whatever you`re doing, before you regret for not doing well. I hope that I`ll remember what I`ve typed after all.=)

got crazy during April fool

I didn`t think much about April fool before. This year is the first year I played some tricks with my friends.This morning I went to school as usual,just when we queued up before we entered our classroom, everybody started to cheat each others.Some of them didn`t realise that it`s April Fool today and most of them got cheated.

What will be the best lie to cheat your friends in school? It is none other than cheating them in the aspect of home works and the lessons we`re going to attend on the day. I will explain how.For example, you may say to your friends in a serious look : " I heard that Puan Chew asked us to redo our Peka Science." Mostly,they`ll believe what you said.

Since today is April fool, many people may be angry easily when they`re cheated by their friends.I`ve tried not to continue on the lie for a long time.Mostly after they began to believe what I`ve said, I`ll say " Happy April Fool" and they`ll know what`s going on.

Many students in our class began to shout and scream for they were so excited to cheat each others. My friends who are the class rep. and assistant class rep. were really mad about that. It`s irritating for them in someway.I didn`t really enjoy the `party` as they did.April fool is a crazy event...xp