Quarrelled with my dad

I have been consulted my friends when they`re facing some problems for quite some time.Today, I realized that I`m actually the one who is facing the biggest problem.Who are going to help me out? Only I can settle this up.I had to depend on myself.

Today, I`ve quarrelled with my dad.He said that I`m having a bad attitude and he said that I`m having a good relationship with my grandmother and my mom, but why not him?He said that sometimes my replies seemed to be too short and he felt that I replied him impatiently.He reminded me that he is getting older and older, he may not be able to look after me anymore some day ( touch wood).

During the "speech" given by him, I kept myself quiet.He said that I`ve never change...the more he said, he got angrier.He said that even he was saying all that to me, I won`t listen to him or regret about it.He was wrong...I did regret...

Sometimes, I didn`t act exactly with what I was thinking in my mind.Quite frankly, I didn`t know why did I do this and that.Actually when he was saying all that to me, I was thinking why am I such a terrible person.What did he say were the truth.He said that een if I`m not feeling well or having a bad mood, I shouldn`t treat him like tis.Yea, he`s right...

I thought that I was improving...but mostly, I `m getting even worser...I don`t know why I was giving so many excuses to myself.I even had the thought to commit suicide...but well, I won`t.

All these need a change.I don`t know why but sometimes when my father kept on saying something non-stop to me, it annoyed me. I`ll just keep myself quiet and listen to what he said.He got everyting repeated. After he complained about his work and he is sick or what and finally he is done with his "speech" , I thought that I got a relief.After I`ve thought throughly, I realized that sharing something with my family is actually a good thing...I shouldn`t be mad about that...

But mostly after that, I talked to him impatiently.I lost my patient and I hate this.Mostly when there`s only both of us at home, he`ll keep on saying this and that to me and my replies became more impatient. Sometimes I`ll think why he had so many things to share with me...I thought that this is annoying...but actually this is only an excuse.

Quite frankly, I`ve talked to him impatiently in the morning recently.What had happened to me? I didn`t really know but I`ll really regret for that.I knew I shouldn`t . I really have to change my attitude.I`m really sorry about that.I didn`t talk anything when he was scolding me, I knew that it`ll make things worse.

He said that my sisters are much better than me.He said that I`m the worst among three daughters.Honestly, I didn`t think positively at the moment... He`s right... I didn`t know whether my apology will work or not...since he had said that...I decided to apologize after school, when he cooled down.

After school, he drove me for lunch as usual.During the lunch time, I said sorry to him.To my surprise, he didn`t look angry.He just explained to me why did he say so...After all, he pat my head and I had a good appetite to eat my lunch.He forgave me.

After this incident, I knew that I have so many things to be fixed and there`s still lots of space for improvement.I didn`t mean to be rude...Dad, I`m really sorry. I promise that I`ll be alert before I speak and I`ll try my best to be a good daughter, and also a good person.

"I`m sorry,dad"