Life

Living in such a fast-paced world, I barely have time to take a break and breath. However, it is by living such a hectic life, I started to realize how simple things can be so satisfying, even though how tiny it appears to be. I used to think that I'm not living a contented life, I used to think that why I am living such a lifeless life. I used to hate myself for being a nerd. Now, I want to say, I'm living my best life. Yea, if this life were to be a graph, it's not a linear graph. This life I'm living in, is filled with ups and downs, and some unwanted outliers.  Because life itself, cannot be fully incorporated into formulas.It is dependent, and is not constant. This life, is filled with surprises, happiness, disappointments, resentment, etc.These, are what that make up life.

I saw this quote from the novel that my friend has written, " when we were young, happiness can be obtained so simply; As we grow up, the simple things are those that make up happiness." Indeed, the simplest things that can be obtained become what that brightens up my day. For example, having time to sleep. Having said that, yea, I have a-night time to sleep this week - today. 

However, I love the way I work hard for what I have passion about. I love the way I never give up until the very last moment. Until today, I still can say that I've tried out my best during every test and every assignment in hand, out of the resources and time available. Challenges can appear in no time out of the blue, slam at your face and leave you bruised. Sometimes you get so fed up with life you just want to break down and cry, but after crying, you stand up, stay strong and brave yourself to face the next few battles. Life isn't always predictable, you'll never know what will happen next and you're not always on the winning side. No matter how well prepared you are and how much effort you've put into sth, it still can go wrong. This is because it's not only by effort you win a battle, it requires God's blessing and that bit of luck. Life changes you, moulds you, and shapes you into someone so different with the previous you, but that, is still you. 

I'm an ordinary person who will love to live a simpler life. I love reading novels, indulging myself in the twists of words and metaphors, singing freely and learn to play ukulele. I love to draw and sometimes, i just have that urge to sketch and to paint. However, all these are time consuming, and time is what that i'm lack of. Things that are of more urgent are always being prioritized, yet, i can't complain anything about it. All these i'm in, are what that make up the beautiful mess I'm living in. Life - it's never easy, never constant.It is a nice blend of pleasant and unpleasant events,it is wonderfully made. :)

Time flies. Doesn't it? I love this pre-u life that i'm living in, and i'm so scared of the uncertain future ahead. Only 3 weeks are left, and I'm going to live the best out of it. :) After this, i'll have so much time to do whatever that i wish to be doing right now, that it will frighten me. Time, if you hear me, please move that much slower, let me cherish every bit of you and live out my best life. :)